30 year old man, Cocaine & Khat
How Ibogaine has changed my life, but first let me give you some back
ground which some might relate too.
Before I start my testimony, the only reason why I am making my
testimony anonymous is that we live in a judgemental and unforgiving
world, I am entrepreneur and this might damage my company brand for
which I have worked very hard to uphold and that, unfortunately takes
away the beauty and healing that Ibogaine has given me.
I am a 30 year old male Indian South African, I have loving wife and
family who stood by me through everything I put them through.
I was an alcoholic (12 years), a daily cocaine and khat user(4years
daily, 12 years total user), prescription pills dependent i.e sleeping
tablets, antidepressants (4 years) and even pain killers due to my drug
and alcohol abuse.
Yes I can really say that I was all kind of messed up.
Every time I admitted myself into a rehab it was because I knew I messed
up big time and although I needed the change in my life I just could not
do it. I have tried AA, NA, councilors, therapists and even hypnosis
none of which really helped me.
The many rehabilitation centre’s I have been too, all of which only
really touched the surface of my issues I was dealing with and knowing
my charming myself even though I voluntarily admitted myself into these
places I would only tell the doctor in front of me what he or she needed
to know in order to get myself out of the situation so I can get out of
there and start abusing again because I knew deep down inside no one
could help me.
Although I always kept a smile, I “sort of” knew deep down what demons I
was facing daily, by saying “sort of” I too can honestly say, at that
point in my life I really couldn’t exactly say what in the world was
going on with me?? Was it the years of abusing substances that cause me
to behave in this manner? Was I mentally ill? Am I a narcissist? Am I a
bad person? Was the trauma I experienced might have caused this? I JUST
COULDN’T UNDERSTAND MYSELF AND WHY I DO THE THINGS I DO EVEN THOUGH I
KNEW I AM HURTING MYSELF AND THOSE I LOVE THE MOST….
I can honestly say to you, my life was still an absolute mess and my
escape was using substances because I couldn’t deal with things that
were happening around me, basically I was not in touch with reality, to
a point that my family and my wife would hide certain things that was
happening because they knew I couldn’t handle it and I would act out on
binging on substances. To this day I cannot believe that they were able
to put up with the “old me”.
Many times in the past I felt like taking my life in order to save them
the pain I was putting everyone through, I even acted out on it a few
times whilst being under the influence. I can only imagine the horror I
have put them through, but Ibogaine has thought me how to forgive myself
first and then seek the forgiveness from the ones I love.
This time around I did not “mess up” I knew I needed to have my mind
right in order to create a better life for myself and my family.
I reached out to Anso and Marie at Magalies Wellness Centre. I believed
that man-made medication has not helped me and infact made me more
chemically imbalanced nor did it help me through the years to cope with
what I was dealing with therefore my last resort was to try a natural
substance in hope that this will help me solve my issues within myself
and in turn cure my dependent drug and alcohol abuse.
Even before going in on the Monday I found myself being very anxious as
I did not know what to expect also I tried to manipulate my family and
myself into thinking that “I don’t think I need this treatment” whilst
deep down I knew that I could never control these demons I have been
living with for all these years.
Another thought that made me very anxious was the fact that “what will I
be doing in my spare time or for entertainment” because my life revolved
around drinking and partying. Just the thought of being a sad sober
person watching people have fun responsibly while I stand there looking
all miserable and not really enjoying myself, this thought killed me
because yes I’m still young and yes I love to socialise and yes I’m
always the life of the party but how am I going to be all that when I’m
just going to be a “dry drunk”.
Boy was I wrong!
Life after Ibogaine…
After Ibogaine I cannot label myself with the stigma of being an addict
nor a victim of circumstances rather I look at myself as someone who did
not know how to handle life or trauma on its own harsh terms.
Situations that were huge walls infront of me that I could not see a way
past are now little humps on my journey.
I understand the world and people differently now.
I cannot believe that all these years I put my body, mind and my loving
soul through such destruction but I am at peace with it.
It honestly feels so good to be normal again, I feel like the person I
knew before I allowed anxiety and depression lead me to drugs and
Ibogaine has thought me how to absolutely LOVE the face I see in the
After Ibogaine, harsh life still happens but now I have the tools
mentally to deal with situations differently without seeking an escape.
Ibogaine has thought me that it’s okay to have fun although being sober,
I am still the life of the party I am still funny even more so now and I
am able to interact and have really meaningful simulating conversations
with people around me.
My life has changed so drastically that all the things the “old me”
chased doesn’t mean that much to me anymore, don’t get me wrong I still
want to build a wealthy future for my generations to come but now I take
care of my wellbeing and my families wellbeing first and I know the rest
will follow and even if it doesn’t IT IS OKAY.
My family life has changed, I have earned their respect back they cannot
believe that I have done a 180 turn.
My loving wife cannot come to terms that it’s actually me the “real me”
that she remembers back in school that is standing infront of her. She
loves me even more now than ever before, I am so proud of myself and I
can now say that today I am a real MAN.
I understand that all these substances the “old me” did will always be
around but I will not put myself through that ever again, I have been
stuck in that dark place for so long almost half my life and now that I
have found peace I never want to let that go.
I can genuinely say that I am drug, alcohol, prescription medication,
anxiety and depression FREE AND I FREAKING LOVE THE LIFE I LIVE!!!!!
A special message to the Magalies Wellness Centre Team, You are God
sent! The work that you do by taking people out of pain and suffering is
beyond belief and I am so grateful to have you as a part of my life! May
God bless you in every way possible! Your loving care for me during and
after my treatment is really heart-warming and assuring! I can never
re-pay the Ibogaine plant and you guys for what you have done for me and
the life I now live but all I can say is THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU HAVE
DONE FOR ME & MY FAMILY!!
PTSD/ 46 year old Male : Johan Hattingh
As an ex-photojournalist with over 17 years experience I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2007.
Stupidly I left it untreated until 2011 when I started therapy, but I quickly became frustrated as I felt the counselor was not hearing me or helping me.
I stopped therapy and started on anti-depressants but while the meds suppressed my emotions it did not treat the core issue of the PTSD.
After two years or so I felt the meds were not working anymore, so with the assistance of my GP I weaned myself off the meds, and then started a slow spiral down into a very dark place.
I experienced extreme feelings of disconnection and alienation, found it virtually impossible to communicate with family and friends, and began to isolate myself from the world. Since 2012 I started living like a hermit in a cottage on my parents’ smallholding, and had overwhelming negative emotions about the world and myself. I found social interaction physically exhausting and started avoiding people more and more. Towards the end of 2018 I was borderline suicidal.
Through the intervention of my parents I finally checked into the Magalies Ibogain Wellness Centre beginning of February 2019.
Apart from the treatment with ibogain, which left me with a profound sense of calm and of having “a clean slate” to start over, the therapy from the various psychologists and counselors was so spot-on to my specific needs.
The interaction with the Centre’s medical doctor was fantastic, and his knowledge and demeanor was reassuring and helped me to remain calm throughout the ibogain experience.
The ibogain went about it’s work of finding and ridding my body of so much negative energy stored inside me over so many years, and the one-on-one therapy and group therapy sessions enabled me to face all the trauma I experienced over so many years and process it.
The treatment and therapy cracked open a 15-year old tightly wound ball of negative thoughts and emotions, and left me not only able to speak about what I experienced for the first time ever, but actually WANTING to speak about it.
Currently I am in a space where I can see beauty in the world again as well as in myself.
I have goals and motivation, and I feel connected and part of the world again.
I cannot thank the Centre and its’ staff enough for what they did for me. How they were able to save me, help me deal with my trauma, and give me the tools to be able to cope with my daily life moving forward, to me is nothing short of a miracle.
I highly recommend the process to anybody who feels in need of assistance in fighting addiction, depression or PTSD.
Johann Hattingh (45)
Chemical Opiates Addiction/36 Year old Female Tatum
Hereby write thus testimony,for anyone fearing /being petrified of the beautiful,magical plant ibogaine.
Upon my 6 month decision ,research of whether i wanted to do ibogaine/not,i went ahead.I was petrified of trying it.Google is pure evil.Of course,nobody wants anyone to know about this ‘magical’ cure,as then the rehabs,and big PHARMA lose.
Rehabs are not the answer,neither shrinks.THEY don’t address your inner pain,inner issues,things u didn’t even know were bothering u.Ibogaine is one million psychotherapy sessions in one treatment.There is no such treatment out there with these healing qualities.
Whilst it didn’t eradicate my physical pain,it was able to go into my inner traumas,all the way from childhood,during visualisations,you have flashbacks of traumas,but everyone’s experience is unique and different,and u can aslo flash past them,if u don’t want to go back into it.The subconscious is able to work together with the conscious,and after treatment,what u visualise,will all make sense,you’ll come to realisations.You’ll know what was bothering u/what u were taking,and what those things were doing to you and your body.
I had bladder removal 3 years ago,for ic,and became dependant on opiates,oxynorm,durogesic,u name it,to numb the pain.After seeing what it was doing to me,ill never touch an oxy in my life…I do believe i’ll find a solution to my pain.
Ibogaine goes over and beyond what u need.If u depressed,addicted or have chronic illnesses,anxious,id suggest doing ibogaine.I actually feel everyone should do ibogaine,as you may just find that inner peace u were searching for..
I feel like i’ve come out of a 5 year coma.I feel alive,energy,and ready to take on any challenge life gives me.Magaliesburg is professional,and when doing this,you want to be in capable hands.They have a gp,nurse and experienced facilitators,as well as emergency equipment.They have positive energy,and make sure you are taken care of.Te gp checks your heart,bloods to make sure u can have treatment.You consent to each iboga capsule during your treatment,so if u don’t want more,they don’t give.They have cameras,check your vitals every half an hour and make sure you are safe at all times,as well as comfortable.
I strongly rec their ibogaine centre. Ibogaine is a pure miracle.I thought it was ‘too good to be true’,but it is no lie,and not short of a miracle plant.
Depression/Alcohol 36 Year Old Female 🌿
Im doing well thanks
I am soo much at peace sometimes it feels too good to be true😊
When i got home i saw my Mom in a different way because i now understand why things happened the way they did when i was a child. Now i know she does love me.
I also visited my dad’s grave, something i never did since he passed away more than 3 years and i actually got some closure.
No more axiety/ feeling deppressed. Actually feels awkward because i was soo used to living alone and isolating my self, now i feel very adventurous 😀. Like i can take on anything
I also have no craving for alcohol. Before the only thing i used to think of at work was my next glass. Now its all gone
Thank you soo much!
Hi there, names will come later, for now call me Mr. Ex-Heroin Addict…
I have been struggling with Heroin-addiction on and off over the last 20 years.
So who am I? I am you who like to drink a few beers after work. I am the Doctor you go see when you’re feeling ill. I am the Lawyer you visit for legal problems. I am the neighbor. I am your child. I am your child’s teacher. I am your friend. I am the person in traffic next to you.
I am anybody and I am everybody.
Don’t be so quick to judge – instead of having a few beers at the end of the day like you, I preferred drugs. Why? Because they were great. It made me feel like my mind expanded and I could see another layer to life that alcohol just never gave me. It made me be able to cope with an otherwise bleak and hopeless world.
Make no mistake, as much fun as all of it was, getting addicted was never part of my plan. Of anybody’s plan. Believe me, it’s not the type of thing you go out and do on purpose. Unfortunately, one morning you wake up in the worst physical pain of your life, not understanding what’s wrong with you.
Welcome to heroin-addiction your poor bastard. And it doesn’t take months, it takes weeks. Understand that from this point forward none of us want to continue to live like this. Society and the medical community is just not very helpful to us that they consider as junkie scum.
Even if you do go to a rehab of some sort and get your ‘prison education’ in there about drug use, all they typically do is move you to methadone-based medicines that is even MORE addictive, expensive and more difficult to get out of your system than actual Heroin is. So really it helps nothing, from one dependency to the next.
Attempting detox alone…lol….so many attempts, so many failures. You see the thing with Heroin is not just the psychological cravings and so forth that you need to overcome. That would have been easy. The real kicker is the physical – for at least the first week you are in so much pain you start begging God to just kill you. However, such mercies are not forthcoming, God must’ve taken the week off. You can’t eat, you throw up constantly, you are in pain, bugs are crawling under your skin and in general you just feel like you are going mad! Believe me when I say that crawling through hell would be less painful. Some make it 6 hours, some make it 3 days, but irrespective of that, somewhere you fold and run to your dealer just to make the pain go away.
The result of this is no friends, no life, no happiness, no family. And you feel utterly desperate and without hope – you don’t know how to get through this invisible prison of Heroin that keeps you locked up close to your dealer, while he keeps the keys to your bank account.
One day a miracle happens; my parents tell me about a place that could help. Word of mouth is how they found out about it.
At Magaliesburg Wellness Centre they offer a new treatment option for basically anything from cigarettes to Heroin addiction. I jumped at the chance to go for the Ibogaine treatment for 5 days. The marketing says no withdrawals, no pain, 5 days and Heroin is a thing of the past. Now that’s kind of hard to ignore and hard to believe at the same time.
Arriving on the Monday, medical tests in hand to make sure I can handle the treatment, I checked in. Safety is the number one priority for them to make sure that you experience no complications during your treatment. Treatment started the Monday evening with a test dose of Ibogaine, a visit from the doctor and from there I received the rest of my dose over the next few hours. By Wednesday night I could start getting up again, not having had any Heroin in days and feeling no pain.
I would lie if I said I wasn’t STILL skeptical, but that’s just because I fear Heroine-withdrawals so much. Only by the Thursday, still not feeling any withdrawal symptoms at all, did I slowly start to relax and realize the biggest nightmare of my life is over, with no pain!
I have to mention that in no other treatment facility have I ever been looked after so well! During treatment you are under constant observation, vitals taken every half hour. The staff there is just awesome in one word! They are all truly passionate about what they do and helping people like me. Anso, Marie, Lou-Anne and so many more staff that deserve special mention.
You guys didn’t treat me; you guys gave me my life back. Something I gave up hope on. And by doing so you gave me a chance to spend my son’s life with him. Time with my parents again. And even a new relationship!
A mere thank you will never ever be good enough, but that’s what I am able to offer at the moment. So thank you, thank you for my life….
Male, 36, Businessman. I booked into Magalies Welllness Centre to address various addiction and stress related issues and am please to report that since treatment I have stopped drinking Alcohole, smoking tobacco, taking prescription medications and have zero withdrawal symptoms. I am at peace and feel completely balanced in terms of sound mind and emotion, the therapy was a game changer in terms if achieving lasting results and exceeded my expectations of the so called reset, restore, renewal and repair the medicine is renowned for. Highly recommend the Centre and their professional staff – any patients will be in good hands throughout the prep, treatment and after care stages of the process.
Ibogaine treatment, male 36 years old, Childhood Abuse: 14 March 2018
It has been a a beautiful experience to do Ibogaine, It has changed my life and my perception to life. Anita Viviers was my guardian Angel during and after my Ibogaine treatment, I have never seen care and compassion like this in my entire life….
I was full of anger and full of guilt before my Ibogaine treatment, and now that I have released all the negativity in my life and all the trauma and its devastating effects to my life, I feel like a brand new person. Full of self-confidence and full of life.
I would like to thank Magalies Ibogaine Wellness centre for changing my life and for giving me myself back, especially Anita. Thank you very much for healing me. for giving me myself back, for giving me unconditional love, for everything that you have done for me.
After my treatment when I couldn’t understand the way I felt, Anso Taljaard gave me the best advise I had in my life and changed my perception towards everything.
Today I am the best that I have been in years thanks to Magalies Ibogaine Wellness Centre and continuing to get better and better everyday from there on.
Ibogaine Testimonial, Codeine Abuse, 56 Yeal Old Male:
I have battled with a codeine addiction for the past 30 years. Last year (October 2016) I went to a rehab facility and booked myself out early because I refused to be treated like a common criminal, and because they were doing their utmost to break my spirit, and worse, they really upset my family, making them believe that I had a sickness. I left after 2 weeks, very angry and wondering if I would be welcomed back into my family. I was really messed up psychologically as were my family, and it took a while for things to return to some semblance of normalcy. I remained angry, though, not only because of the way they had so intrusively played with my mind, and those of my family, but also because I was sort of out of kilter with the world. I struggled with this for 5 or 6 months, feeling lethargic, tired, angry and upset, unable to function properly, so I went back onto the codeine. This helped, but I still wanted to get off the stuff. Things came to a head when my employer found out I was back on codeine. They were prepared to help, but only if I went back to rehab. I refused, and would rather have left a brilliant job, than go back to rehab. In desperation, my wife searched on line and we found the Magalies Wellness Center, read up about the treatment and contacted them. I was skeptical, because I found it hard to believe that a 30 year dependency could be cured literally overnight. I spoke to my employer who read up on it, and although they were skeptical they agreed that it was an acceptable compromise to a traditional rehab.
I booked in to the wellness center (Not a rehab) a week later; the staff were friendly and supportive, and unlike a traditional rehab, you are not treated as a second class citizen and ‘locked up’, rather, you are treated with respect and dignity. I received my treatment the night I booked in. Unsure of what to expect, I simply resigned myself to whatever was going to happen. Under treatment, I was extremely sick, unable to go to the toilet unaided because my legs would not work, but I was always treated with dignity and never made to feel embarrassed. My wife, who was worried back at home, was kept informed of the progress throughout, and made to feel connected to what was happening; again, unlike rehab, who never contacted her, leaving her in the dark as to my progress.
The day after the treatment is called a ‘grey day’as your body adjusts to; for want of a better way of putting it, a new reality. They refer to the getting sick part of the treatment as purging, which is actually very accurate. Somehow, and I do not know how, I was left with absolutely no physical need for codeine. I wondered if that might come after a few days, but it never did. I do not crave the codeine anymore, the physical need for it is gone. For as long as I can remember, I have never not needed codeine in a physical way. I have also emerged from my ibogaine treatment, much more clear headed and with a positive outlook that was, to some degree, lacking whilst in the clutches of codeine. I was an addict, but I am no longer an addict. My future is a positive one that I can live normally and in good health. Do not let people tell you; Ónce an addict, always an addict; that is simply not true, this treatment has rid me of my addiction completely, both physically and mentally.
I will be eternally grateful to my wife for finding this option to treat my addiction, and I am eternally grateful to the staff at the wellness center, who took such good care of me, attending to my every need. Thank you
Heroin Testimonial, 36 Year Old Female:
I came to Magalies Ibogaine Wellness Centre for heroin addiction.
The place is so peaceful and it feels good to be away from the city. I would recommend going for two weeks or at least 7 days. I did not have any withdrawals the first two days. The third day I felt low, but that is my body recovering from the hard drug. The people is so dear and helpful, good therapy and help from Anso. Helping with alternatives to stay away from hard drugs. Ibogaine really works, as soon as the withdrawals come i take another Ibogaine. Yes, you will still feel loss of energy but that is normal, at least i didn’t get bad iron taste in mouth, and Ibogaine treated the muscle aches.
I would strongly recommend Magalies Wellness Centre. Especially for heroin addiction. Just the amazing scenery, animals, healthy food and friendly staff makes it even better than other rehabs!
Its a down to earth, relaxed and no judgement environment. I loved it here and can’t wait to visit again!
Thank you 🙏🏻💙🙏so much to everyone for your professional care and love that made my Ibogaine journey so amazing ❣
Every little detail ✅ was thought of!
Thanks Jeanine for your ✨ glowing 💫self – you put me at ease and made me excited for my journey!
Faf, Anita and Angie were so professional and made me feel comfortable and safe.
Anita thank you so much for the agate – it is perfect!
You guys are the perfect team for treatment nights – just incredible!
Thank you Carla for popping in when you did – I was so grateful that you walked!
Thanks Ty for water melon, tea ☕ and toast and suggesting I put my feet👣 in the 💦 pool 💦…best idea ever! ☀
Hannes thank you for making a delicious supper 🍲 for Gerard and I before we came home – Gerard raved how tasty, healthy and simple it was.
The atmosphere at the centre is so 🔆💗 magical 💟✨ at the moment, together with that and a professional, in touch, fingers on the pulse team will see Magalies Wellness Centre to the top of it’s game globally…if it ain’t there already!
Let’s do it people….
Let’s Ibogaine the planet! 🌎🌍🌏
My Iboga Journey….so far. A review one month after treatment.
A month ago my life was falling apart or rather had fallen apart.
I was depressed, suffering from intense anxiety, terribly overmedicated and dependant on tranquilizers and antidepressants which were not making anything better.
I was placed on disability leave from work because of these factors six months previously. I then relapsed on Methcathinone (cat) from which I had 4 painfully earned clean years left wasted over a few month period and found myself taking cocaine and large amounts of MDMA along with the Cat. I smoked pot almost none stop in an effort to self-medicate while my long term relationship deteriorated and ended in the midst of this.
I had been the target of crime twice while in this bad space which compounded my feelings and I was a complete wreck left with nothing. That’s how I saw it, it was all I could see. I had given up on life and was in a suicidal despair. My family were being affected terribly and I was dragging everyone down with me.
I had just finished my second of two week long stints for depression in Sandton Clinic in the space of a month and I wasn’t feeling any better than before.
I might have been recently clean from drugs other than my perpetual weed habit but it was an effort to keep it that way and I was relying heavily on tranquilizers and on 4 different schedule 5 medications at once. I needed help badly. Luckily my best friend who lives at the coast suggested I go stay with him and after seeing how the meds were making me worse helped me wean off all of them other than the tranquilizers, which I had become absolutely dependant on and the mere thought of going without them brought up the familiar panic response. None the less I was able to think again and with a clearer mind I decided to address the issues with something drastic. Two good friends of mine had been going through their own tough time and struggle with substance abuse and told me about their success with going through an Ibogaine assisted detox program. They stressed it wasn’t a “rehab” in any classical sense and they both suggested I look into it as they believed with a pressing certainty that it would help me with all my issues. It wasn’t the first time I had heard of Ibogaine, which is an extract of the root of the Iboga tree which grows in West Africa. I was very familiar with plant entheogens (teacher plants) and the psychedelic experience and Iboga was always something I had heard to stay away from. “It’s not recreational” and “It is extremely intense” were two mental images that had formed from the little I knew about the plant and my knowledge about its uses up to that point was limited to the success stories I had read about its’ use as a detoxing agent for heroin addicts (If I remember correctly there was a Carte Blanche epiode focussing on Iboga for heroin withdrawal). My preconceived conception about it was that it probably scared addicts straight. To say I was scared of it is an understatement, I was terrified. Ibogaine treatment was something I was viewing as the emotional and mental equivalent of being flayed alive.
I got hold of the suggested facilitators at the Magalies Wellness Centre and immediately was assured, with that same certainty my friends who had been there showed, that this would help me if I wanted to get better. After speaking to Anso, the psychologist who heads the centre, I was sold. She spoke my language and understood my situation and for the first time in a long time I was already starting to feel a glimmer of hope. After confirming a booking into the Magalies Wellness Centre I immediately began researching everything I could read into about Ibogaine. Much of what I read spoke of miraculous cures and the uniqueness of the experience for each individual as well as just how physically and mentally trying it could be. Although I was feeling that this may just be something that could help me, I was not at ease about the experience itself and “terrified” still described my state of mind. There was nothing to lose though as I saw it and it was time for a kick up the backside, a big fat “psychedelic smack” was something I figured I might as well go through before giving up on hope.
Preparing for the treatment I thought I would detox myself as much as possible and attempted to stop tranquilizers on my own a week before. After experiencing extreme anxiety and panic, I soon realised the extent of my dependence on the tranqs and called up the Wellness Centre to explain my situation. I was informed that it was not necessary and that detoxing from the tranquilizers was something the Ibogaine would assist with no problem. Ok, that was a silly thing to have tried alone, so I continued with the tranqs and spent the last few days before treatment in the familiar manageable haze of large doses of benzodiazepines and a constant cloud of weed smoke. I shook non-stop, had lost so much weight I looked close to death and it didn’t take much to get me to burst into tears about everything in my life and nothing at all, I was drained and tired of feeling like someone was sitting on my chest and I thought impulsively and constantly of ending my life.
It was a nightmare and I was really starting to look at the treatment as a “last chance”, a lifeboat that was either going to save me or sail past like all the other treatments and medications which promised to help but didn’t in the slightest.
To emphasise the extent to which I had exhausted other treatments over the course of my recurring depression I must point out that I had tried everything psychiatry and psychology could offer, every medication imaginable; hospitalisation, a stint in rehab, psychology sessions, exercise, herbal alternatives and vitamin and mineral supplements and even electro convulsive therapy which is a barbaric treatment that left me with amnesia I still have. These treatments combined never once left me feeling that anything was better or would possibly be getting better anytime soon.
The Monday I checked in I was quite literally shaking with fear and the drive through to Magaliesburg from Johannesburg felt a bit like walking to the gallows. Upon arrival at the centre I was immediately greeted with compassion, love and smiles from everyone there. I felt
my concerns starting to leave as I realised I was among people who know what they are doing and are passionate about helping people get better. I related to everyone there and came to realise that many of the facilitators and therapists had been through their own life journeys and sorted out their lives with the assistance of Ibogaine. This was something I was now committed to and the day flew by as I got ready for the first treatment which was to begin at 6pm on the Monday night. There was no eating for 6 hours before the treatment commenced and minimal water was to be consumed for a few hours before.
I settled into bed and tried to do the last of my mental preparations while I had my blood pressure and heart rate checked. The time had come. I received a test dose of 200mg Ibogaine Hcl in a capsule along with an anti-nausea medication and was left in the room with a camera watching should I need to signal for assistance. I had been informed that I would recieve my Ibogaine treatment split over two nights, one capsule at a time while having my vitals monitored to ensure there were no adverse effects and the medication was being tolerated. Within what I am guessing was less than 20 minutes I felt my shakes calm down to nothing. I had not expected this initial tranquil feeling before anything else started. My body felt heavy and despite the anti nausea tablet the sick feeling in my stomach set in and my body started to tell me that something stressful was in it. I lay back waiting for the huge trip to begin and closed my eyes tightly as I had been told that any visual experience during the trip
would only happen with closed eyes and should I want it to stop I just had to open my eyes. After a few hours of lying there staring into darkness while receiving more capsules to get to my first nights target of 4, there was nothing. The physical side was unbelievable and the nausea and discomfort felt from even moving slightly was something that was not pleasant and although I did not throw up I had spent much of the time feeling a bit ill. It was disorientating and nauseating but it wasn’t emotionally or mentally testing that first night and I was slightly disappointed at not having had a profound “trip” as was described by many others who had documented their experience and by the early hours of Tuesday morning I was given a sleeping pill and nodded off.
“Grey Day” is the term given to the day after treatment. It is a time of trying to process what had happened while dealing with the body stress and side effects like light sensitivity and emotional issues surfacing and the sense that something was changing.
We watched documentaries and ate well that day and the next while receiving counselling and therapy from the various on-site practitioners and Anso who brings an amazing insight into the human experience and imparted advice on things like how to manage negative thought patterns into more positive ones. I had already lost all craving for tranquilizers and cannabis and was waking up at the crack of dawn. Something was starting to change, I won’t say I was better on Tuesday or Wednesday. I was still struggling emotionally and felt depressed. We watched informative documentaries and made a vision board which is something I had been wanting to do for a while and was glad to do.
Thursday arrived with much anticipation and a change in expectations. I felt ready to let go and accept whatever came from that nights session. I requested if it would be possible to play some music in the beginning of the session and an arrangement was made to borrow an ipod and speakers. I was hoping that would ease the transition into the experience.
As with the Monday nights treatment all safety precautions were taken and the Ibogaine administered one capsule at a time, this time supplemented by Iboga root bark which contains a small amount of Ibogaine along with a number of other plant alkaloids in order to try and achieve thee desired effect.
This session was very different to the last. The beginning of the trip was dominated by the ambient psychedelic music I had put on. The music was something I can’t explain and for a while I was lost in just how beautiful sound can be, I could feel the Ibogaine going to work on every part of me, both physical and mental and the image that one of the facilitators put in my head about Ibogaine as millions of minions working on the “chip boards” inside me, soldering connections and disconnecting unwanted connections was spot on. After a couple of hours of getting immersed in the music and general feeling of wellbeing (despite the ever present nausea) the music cut out and the trip itself began. To say that you “see” a lot during the trip is a massive understatement. Feeling like an observer I saw so much imagery from my life, quite possibly everything I have ever seen running frame by frame at millions of frames a minute. It was far too much to recall even a single frame and was very dreamlike and nowhere near as terrifying as I imagined. As hard as it is to describe any psychedelic experience, this one takes the cake so to speak. I gave up trying to make sense of the trip afterwards and the notes I had been painstakingly taking throughout the course of the week stopped as I realised that I did not understand or have the ability to translate the actual experience itself afterwards. I did get physically sick that night and purging Ibogaine is not a pleasant thing to do, it tastes revolting. All I can say about that
night is that it was profound, confusing and most definitely felt like I was being reset, rebooted and allowing my various levels of subconscious to process what was far too much to consciously go through. The next day as predicted was a grey day with disorientation and unsteadiness with much emotion flowing through me.
Here is where the magic begins. In the weeks following the treatment all I can say is that every day is better than the last. I left the centre with no desire to do drugs, no physical or emotional withdrawal and most importantly absolutely zero trace of the depression that had haunted me for longer than I could remember. I occasionally get a touch of anxiety although it is not nearly the unbearable monster it was before and I look forward to it being a thing of the past soon. The world is filled with hope and beauty and what Iboga has given me is the ability to control my mind and emotions. Being able to choose to feel better is a skill which I did not practice before.
It is difficult to relate it as a spiritual awakening because that means such different things to different people, although this is how I see it. My sleep cycles reset and I rise with the sun and I go to gym most days where it was previously difficult to get out of bed. My relationships with family and friends have changed completely and I have been able to remove myself from groups and people that were not good for me.
I am no longer the angry person I realise I had become, with situations in life that would have been unbearable now seeming like nothing more than the surmountable challenges they are. I appreciate the time I spend with my young son in a way I wasn’t able to before. I went from bursting into tears every day for months previously and now the only tears I have shed in the last month have been of joy at the beautiful things that I already had in my life all along which I am now appreciating and massively grateful for as well as the amazing things that I am able to bring into my life with intent. I have stayed in touch with the people from the centre who have become friends as well as having met and stayed in touch with a few other people who have gone through the treatment process for various reasons. The consensus from every single one is the same, despite their different subjective experiences during the treatment and their various reasons for undergoing treatment; from drug issues, burnout and emotional distress to psycho-spiritual reasons. Every one of them is so blown away by the experience that the word “miracle” gets thrown around and accepted as undeniable.
There is so much to say about Ibogaine and the supporting treatment process offered and the strange thing is that the more I try understand it the less I do, all I can say is that it works, without a doubt, it has given me my life back and I will never again even consider antidepressants/rehabs or becoming a “patient” again. This treatment does not create patients, it allows you to heal to a point that is not just a maintenance or relief from symptoms but gives you a chance to be “you” again and what you do with that is your own choice.
If you are thinking of doing Ibogaine assisted therapy, please put aside your doubts and fears and give it a chance, the benefits are so profound and so immediate that they will speak for themselves. If you are seeking to no longer consider yourself sick or a permanent “patient” or are living in the cycle of a twelve step program, then know that there are people working to fix ailments rather than create patients and they are doing an unbelievable job. It is a leap of faith and one that I am so very grateful that I took, I only wish for others who are struggling like I was to commit to this option and feel good again.
Male Addict/Alcoholic/Depression Age 32:
My testimonial. Hope it even begins to do justice to my experience.
The psychedelic experience has been by far the most profound experience of my life. I had been battling a variety of addictions the worst of them was a 15 year khat dependency. It was an everyday thing. It had left me too depressed to get out of bed in the morning, too anxious to be around people, no sign of a personality and hopelessly lost. I literally hated myself. I had been in rehabs and in and out of the program for many years just deteriorating as they went by. I was at the end of the line, my friends and family had lost all hope for me. Then one day a dear friend of mine suggested ibogaine. I had no idea what ibogaine was so I researched it and the thought of it totally freaked me out to say the least, but I didn’t have any other options and I made my booking for the next week. When I arrived at Magalies Wellness Center I was greeted with overwhelming love and compassion, nothing like rehab where they make you feel like a criminal from the moment you arrive. When I first saw Anso I knew straight away she was the real deal!!!! She had monkeys hanging off of her and a caracal following her around. She has an air wisdom about her that makes you hang on every word she says to you. The best psychologist I’ve ever had the pleasure of talking to, and I’ve spoken to my fair share. She knew exactly what was going on with me and for the first time in my life actually someone actually had the ability to help me. I was given the ibogaine that evening and I retired to my room, which was a magical dwelling made entirely by hand. The actual journey wasn’t the terrifying experience I was expecting, I felt emotionally indifferent and the time passed quickly. When I awoke and went outside things had changed, I noticed the nature around me, beautiful as if seeing it for the first time. I felt 20 years younger. I spent the remainder of the week being cared for by the staff immersing myself in the environment, completely taken by my surroundings. I had never even noticed nature before then, I was too caught up in my suffering that I couldn’t even stop to smell the flowers. It was a magical experience. There was a plant on the farm that I fell in love with and I took a cutting home with me and planted it, something so out of character for me. I tend to it daily and it’s thriving. When I got home the magic really started, the depression and anxiety were completely gone!! It was a miracle if you could have seen the state I was in when I left. I had no urge to use drugs at all. AT ALL!!!! I felt amazing and it just got better every day. The first 2 months after ibogaine are pure bliss, the plant gives you a window period in which to completely change your life and I did. Over next few months I was in daily contact with Anso the entire time, she always made time for me and still does to this day. I was welcomed back to farm numerous times in following months which made all the difference, the support, the love, the community!! These are the things that you need to get you through addiction and they understand that. I feel like I have become part of the family and this is their intention. The success I see in all the patients is nothing short of miraculous!! Everyone is given a new lease on life!!
Things now are completely different, I’m free of antidepressants, anti-anxieties, tranquilizers, sleeping pills, khat and cocaine!! Everything has changed completely!! EVERYTHING!! I was completely unemployable, I am now thriving in my new job. I couldn’t get out of bed, now I’m up at 5:00 every morning, meditating, exercising, loving my new life!! There is no price you can put on what this experience has done to me. It’s been described as ten years of psychotherapy in one sitting, I’m not sure 10 years of therapy would come close to benefit I received from the experience. I don’t have to label myself a recovering addict. I’m recovered!! I’m no longer an addict of any kind!!
I just want to say a massive thank you that to everyone, Anso, Marie, Roman, Angelique, Anita, Francios, Louanne, Gerald, Tyron and Brigitte!! You guys have given me my life back. It’s been the most wonderful experience getting to know each one you. The love I got from you guys was all I had at that stage and it got me through the hardest time in my life. You guys are true warriors of the light!! A breath of fresh air!! Keep up the amazing work you’re doing!! I love you all more than you could possibly imagine!!
“Jaco Age 33 – I have been suffering from the crippling effects of anxiety and depression since early childhood due to certain traumatic life events and abuse by an alcoholic parent. After a substantial amount of money and time was spent on numerous Psychologists and Psychiatrists over the years I remained treatment resistant and the symptoms persisted. My personal and professional life inevitably suffered as a consequence until I turned to Magalies Wellness Centre where Ibogaine treatment, combined with Anso’s Psychological tools & expertise pointed my life in the right direction.
It has been 6 months since receiving the treatment and I remain free from depression & anxiety and I have an overall positive outlook on my life and the future. My 3-day stay at Magalies Wellness Centre can certainly be rated as the most tranquil and healing experience I have ever received and remain my best financial investment to date. I can only give praise and gratitude to all the people and staff at the Centre for their kindness, warmth, compassion & hospitality.”
TvdM – Male- Alcoholic/PTSD aged 49 ” Each day just get’s better, I feel relaxed, 20 years younger, new energy. This was the best treatment I had in years, feeling wonderful. Thanks, you have given me a new life! Even if my day was busy I don’t drink at all, I have not touched a drop after the treatment, it’s really been life changing and getting better each day, a proper mindset is all that is required. Have a great day and send my regards to all on the farm! ”
His wife: ” Anso, it’s going very well, the guy that came back is not the same one that went in for the treatment- he is calm and peaceful, looks like you’ve cloned him as a new better person :-))). We drink tea, chat lots and I feel like I’m involved with a new man in a new loving relationship! Thank you!
” I feel lighter, lots of new energy, people at work ask me what did I do, my skin looks great and I feel like a new person. I don’t drink any pills or sleeping tablets whatsoever and I feel I can face anything and I miss the tranquility of the Centre and lovely staff, please send my regards and love to them! Thank you! ” RvW Female aged 46 – Treatment done for Personal growth.
” I’m a female age 51, I arrived here not knowing what to expect or what the pills would do to me. I just knew I wanted to get rid of all the dissapointments in my life as well as feeling burnt out at work after so many years of working extremely hard and it being my first priority. After my Inboga experience at Magalies Wellness Centre I feel that everything does not way me down that much, I feel lighter and can face my world again with renewed energy. I think more rational and my anger has virtually dissapeared, quite an amazing and astonishing experience on all levels. I feel like I can face anything that comes my way in a more appropriate and confident manner. Thank you Anso and staff, this has been life changing! ” M.D.
Male aged 23 : ” I’m so glad I came to the sanctuary and Wellness Centre. Before I found it very difficult to make decisions and to stick to them. After my Iboga treatment I feel much more confident and now KNOW I can “better” myself as I have the inherent belief in myself again. My going away feeling is that of ” I can do anything if I put my mind to it! Spending my last day walking around the Wildlife Sanctuary, connecting with nature, seeing all the amazing animals they have here, was most exhillirating, from the tamed baby Vervet monkeys, the Meerkats, Mongoose and the beautiful baby Caracal was a once in a life-time special experience! Thank you Anso! ” Iboga pasient that wanted to quit smoking.
Female aged 44, Business Woman, Alcoholic for 25 years: ” I’ve been to 2 rehabs in my life, not one made any difference to my behaviour and alcohol problem whatsoever. My Iboga experience was truly one of the most awesome and fascinating experiences of my life…. During the first 8 hours I saw the most beautiful images I’ve ever seen, I heard music/tones and sounds from another dimension. I saw how we are all connected as one, and felt that there is nothing to be afraid of in this life. I literally felt the Ibogaine work through my blood vessels in my whole body, pulsating waves and healing as it flowed through, working on a cellular level, quite difficult to describe. I now also know we have the power to create a life of what we dream of, as long as we can believe in ourselves and use the opportunities the Universe provides us with and as long as our intentions are pure, there is nothing we can NOT do! Anso, thank you SO much!! The venue is awesome, the staff are angels. ”
Kelly’s experience Aged 27, Objective: Personal growth:
“My 2nd birthday or “re-birth” day. I am undergoing the Iboga treatment right now and must say, WOW! Terryfying and awesome all at the same time. I could feel the drug working through my body and I was very aware of myself on a cellular level – like I could see my heart and veins with my minds-eye like it was accurate. I heard a constant humming buzz subtly throughout the entire experience more so when I moved my head, as soon as I lay still that buzz would stop. I also had the implicit sense that Ibogaine, the drug I used, my nickname Ibo, was a real alive being (or consciousness) and she was telling me to keep still so she and her helpers could spring-clean my body. Like a mom cleansing her house, throwing out all the junk, so I lay still.
Then there were the intervals of pulsating waves like a “whooa whoo whooa” for a few seconds at a time. My entire body felt like it was going with the flow rocking with this wave though I’m laying very still. It was a very powerful feeling but not unbearable. I feel like my brain was being vibrated/shaken back into balance in a incredibly “allright” feeling. Comforting and horrific can not decribe it. I could deal with it, it was neccessary. Then the visions inside my eyelids became a film of weird and strange things, things I’d never seen before or maybe have, I don’t know. I could see the blackness as little cells opening into a rapidly blooming big and many leaved flower. I would see the faces of people I know come and go.
I thought of many metaphysical and quantum theory concepts, way too many to mention, but what I’d like to mention is the realist sense and total confirmation that we are ALL interconnected. I’m even connected to this duvet I’m under and I don’t mean the “touching connection” – I mean intellectual and physical connection as it is made of small little particles, just like me 🙂 I threw up twice as it was too much and I tried to sleep but my brain was over active though my body was asleep for sure. I threw up to purge toxins, not Ibogaine. That felt really important . I’m about to take another sleeping pill and sleep through the night. Will write more later…
I’m up again and feeling much more stable than before. The effects are still with me but not as prevalent than before. I still see the waves following my hands as I move and there is a slight buzz in my ears. I’m moving very slowly but I can feel I’m almost back to normal….whatever that may be…I also had the need to scratch or pick at my face, like I always do to pick off a scab or bump on my skin. I did that and found it totally wrong afterwards, as if hearing my body speak to me it told me “don’t do that, we need to heal here, leave it alone..” then I would wonder why I did that in the first place? What am I so nervous and uptight about?
Also, before when I described the cells moving in the darkness of my eyes it was as if they first form lines of river flow – like channels moving up and down and then the visions would start. I was also aware that with my pupils dilated as much as they were, I could see so much more than normal. Not physically but in my eye and minds-eyes. When I moved whilst I was in the middle of this experience, I would shake, I felt very unstable but as soon as I lied still it would stop, the shaking.
I also envisioned a scorpion crawling up the thatch roof on the inside of my bedroom, it was huge, then it grew wings and when I focused again I saw it was just thatch 🙂 Also, during the Iboga it’s seems asif one see’s the LIFE in everything. I had a half a glass of water next to me and when I looked at it, I could see those cells around the water in it – flowing as if the water was alive.
I tried to think of my problems and the things I’d like to fix in my life, but the more I tried, Ibo would say just relax, we’ve got this under control, you just have to lie there and be still. I envisioned a circle of people – like “beings” in a circle around my bed and the one asked the other (telepathically) ” Do you think she knows we are here? ” and I answered ..I am here. This was around the time I was getting nervous as to what was happening to me and these “people/beings” were there to protect me and and tell me “let go” over the control I wish to have over my body and mind.
I took 6 pills in total, we were aiming for 7-8 but I thought that maybe because I have no serious addictions or toxins in my body, I didn’t need as much as those who do have those problems, I flet it was effective. I definately feel like my life won’t be the same after this. Something has most definately changed, but I will notice the effects in the next few weeks to come. My muscles are sore but I think it’s from being bed-ridden for almost 12 hours. I can handle light a bit better now, best to do Iboga in a darkened environment as one is sensitive to light during the first 12 hours.
My imagination made itself known to me as clearly as when I see a familiar face. I dreamt of my child, Ibo told me I would have 1 child, not children. That seemed quite important. I remember thinking I need to tell people how effective this (Iboga-treatment) is, it REALLY works!
My mouth felt full, asif my tongue was swolen and my forehead felt like it was protruding forwardly outward, this was only for a moment. I definately feel like my life won’t be the same after this. ( to be continued)
There is definately another realm or realms. Places we cannot see, but my perception of wanting to see those places or feel inadequate that I can’t, or I feel dooped by the system to not see it has changed. I now understand that we are not meant to see it..it’s not our place, it’s there, and however briefly I had a chance to just be told, for sure, that they are there.
I had a very real sense that I (as a human body) have been genetically engineered and that all my parts are still in excellent working condition and that with this body I am meant to enjoy this 3rd dimensional space that I am born into. It’s an experience amoungst many I’ve had before and many I’ll have again. Lives. The other “entities” were also trying to tell me that this roller-coaster of a human life is meant to have up’s and down’s and drama and peace. Where they come from every problem is a solution and every solution is a problem. It’s all in balance over there. Here, things are meant to be shaken up so they can identify their own kind amongst us humans. We are just hosts for the core of where we come from as a being or soul and we are all from there. (to continue)
Check out Graham Hancock’s Ibogaine experience: http://www.grahamhancock.com/archive/supernatural/
Crystal Meth Addiction
“I was addicted to Meth for 10 years…its been 3 months!!! and I am clean. The thought of going back is not even a possibility. It feel’s soooo good to be be free of drugs. Thank you so much Anso!’
“Experiencing ibogaine was a life changing event. It gave me a moment to turn everything off and to re-examine myself. It showed me a new self respect that I will never forget.” – Johan D.
“Six days with Anso at their Wellness Centre was more beneficial than 10 years of western world psycho therapy!… I suffered with depression for over 14 years. I am now anti-depressant drug free and very happy and it’s been 6 months and 8 days since my first treatment.” Riana B.
” Hi people, my name is JdV. I have used Heroin for the past 25 years almost daily (3g-4g) and I have reached the point that I knew that if i didn`t stop with Heroin it would be my dead soon. After a lot of researching online I realized Iboga could help me breaking my Heroin habbit so that would be the only way to go. So it is now 2 months since I underwent my Iboga treatment. From that moment I have not used heroin anymore… And another great thing is I even do not smoke anymore, I didn`t expect that but it is very nice. Anso, thank you very much, I am so happy with the great results and your good work and faith in me. Well done! Keep on going breaking Dependencys. ” 42 year old male Heroin/Methadone Dependance.
Testimony from Conrad
I have been addicted to Cat and crystal meth for the past five years and I was on the brink of losing everything in my life that I haven’t sold or swopped for my drug habit yet. I was down in the dumps.
My Iboga experience was like an unexplainable dream. I heard African drums along with a buzz that sounded almost like a small helicopter. I saw images of trees, windows opening and many faces. I could remember things from my childhood. At first I was nervous but then an indescribable bliss fell over me. I could feel the Iboga working through my whole body and I could see in myself how the ibogaine was working its miracle.
The next day I spent half the day sleeping and when I woke up it was like waking up in a new body. I looked at life through new eyes. Food had a new, better taste, sounds were crystal clear and my sight turned to ’high definition” (I think this explains it best) General aches and pains dissapeared and an absess I had was also gone.
I now have amazing energy and new zest for life! I feel AMAZING! I have not had one thought, craving or withdrawal from drugs.
I was treated like family, I felt so much at home. Liza, Anso and Marie took great care of me.
They have enriched me with so much information about why I did the things i did and how I can better my life in future.
To Anso, Liza and Marie, you guys are great!
Doctor H: Aged 52 – General Practitioner (GP) from Pretoria
I wanted to take Ibogaine to enhance spiritual growth. Ibogaine isn't fun to take because of the nausea and cardiac stimulation but I felt well looked after and nurtured during the active phase. The amazing insights into myself and my close relationships healed much in me and a true lightness of being arose, so much so that the whole experience had me laughing spontaneously. After 3 months this laughter still pervades my life. Apart from my own experience, I have referred others ( in their case for addictions) and they have had the same amazing healing experience. Personally I think that the professional and loving care helped me to feel safe and this is very important in taking plant based medicines. These wonderful people are passionate about helping others. The whole experience was uplifting. ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
JH- Franschoek Age 41 Male